i’ve met a lot of sci-fi nerds like me.

and i’ve met fewer creative and artistic people like me.

i’ve met even fewer people who understand the need for intelligence, and the future of humanity.

i’ve met a great deal of so called philosophical intellects.

and i’ve even met a few skeptics like me, who see everything and nothing, who understand infinity, and who will never deny the possibility of not actually being here nor there, or existing at all.

i’ve met people who seek originality.

i’ve met people who understand and can laugh at borderline psychotic humor.

i’ve met a great deal of people who live in darkness, crave horror, and even those others worry may go crazy some day.

i’ve met people who are free and open-minded, think unbiasedly like children, or just act like children.

and i’ve met a few quiet people, who understand loneliness, and depression, and emotion, and can sit and meditate for hours, reflecting on the past and can smile as they cry.

i’ve even met people who can create an entire world in their own mind, and only see perfection in that, and are drawn away from everything in this unimaginative world.

i’ve met a few narcissists too.

but i’ve never met anyone with all these qualities.

and i don’t think i ever will.

and that is why i will never fully connect with anyone.

and am forever alone.